Since starting Sparrow as an econ major out of college, a lot has changed. No longer reporting to professors, but to myself. It has raised countless lessons and countless questions. It has been far from easy (for me anyway). As I am sure there are plenty others that would run circles around my work. One of the biggest challenges has been knowing I don’t know everything while recognizing I have work to be done. Struggling to find the balance of delaying for quality and going forward with quantity. Often times, I have made the wrong decisions. Sometimes resulting in a cost, whether for my business, my own time (sleep, social life, health included), or even those around me. (Which I think can just add more stress to these decisions at times.) However after each decision, regardless of the outcome, I have found I am typically a whole lot closer to the insight I was searching for from the beginning.
As my great grandmother used to say, “ You do what you know is best until you know better.” And that is exactly what I intend to do. Yes, tomorrow you may realize you could’ve done something better or should’ve done something different, but that is tomorrow and then you will do better. We make mistakes, we aren’t always quite ready, don’t quite know everything, but it should never keep us from starting, growing, and becoming the person or business we need to be.
I am reminded of my time as tennis player as I held myself to the standards of perfection. If I hit a ball out, it needed corrected, I needed to give myself a talk and dwell on it. I had this expectation that every ball I hit needed to land in or blow past my opponent. I mean after all, I had been playing for several years, I know how to hit, so what kind of idiot hits out or dumps it in the net? I thought this to be sound reasoning. It dawned on me much later after my tennis days, the tennis great Roger Federer after 20 years of being PRO, still hits balls out. So who am I to think I can get upset over hitting balls out, I’m not Fed? I understand being upset with a lack of effort, but sometimes you will do everything right, work hard, and the shots just won’t land in. It could be simply any number of things.
I believe I robbed myself of grace and a lot of growth by ignoring the reality that everything is a process. If you pretend the learning curve doesn’t exist, your problems too will only continue to persist. Instead of focusing on my problems, I should’ve learned how to focus on solving them and how to adapt while being among them. This time around I hope to not make the same mistake, but even if I do, sometimes the ball just goes out, and that is okay…for me and you too. You gotta start somewhere and there is always something to be learned.
All this being said, I hope to share with you more of my far from perfect experiences via my blog. Topics include stories from Sparrow, doing stem cells, interviews with doctors from around the world, health, protocols I am doing, and probably some random stuff about coffee, travel, books, and my dog too. I’ll probably hit a ball or two out, but I hope you enjoy it anyway.